Who I am

I am the prototype of all that is successful, innovative, unconventional, tragic.

I am the guinea pig of life's trials

I am an example to all human kind

I am the source for failed risks and unprecedented triumphs

I am the suffering soul to release the dreaming spirit

I am failure

I am the mirror that reveals the norm as insanity

I am the ideas that make no sense

I am the dreams of millions

I am the fear of even more

I am the hope of the downtrodden

I am the joke of the privileged

I am a stain on society in the eyes of its noble citizens

I am the outcast of the culture

I am the predecessor of the renaissance

I am my fathers life's work

I am my mother biggest worry

I am my teacher's unknowing byproduct

I am my God's favorite reality show

I am religion's enemy

I am freedom's skeptic

I am a never-ending stream of consciousness

I am a miracle that had to have been a mistake

I am questions with no answers

And somehow you expect me to be what you want me to be

I will be everything else but that.....

Questions of the night

How do you know the different between needing a change from when you are being ungrateful?Will I always want more or am I just in a place that was not meant for me. How do you become happy in your current surroundings and still strive for more? What would be the point if you are perfectly happy where you are? If so then how little is enough? How much is excess? I don't know the answers but I am plagued with the questions. Stuck in a place where I don't know what to work toward, happiness in my current situation or achievement of my desired position.

I'm waiting

Here it is again!

The inevitable quote of the script recited by many

“I intrigue you, excite you, fascinate you”

The gratifying compliment that always leaves me with one question...

When is someone gonna do the same for me?

When am I gonna be audience to your show, a pupil to your wisdom, a fan to your greatness...

When can I be inspired and at the same time tip-toe of the edge of inferiority?

When are you gonna challenge me to upgrade my authenticity.

The passion in me needs for colors to change names, seasons to alternate daily, the sky to switch places with the earth. Make me live in the sea and swim on land. I want the birds to envy our movement, I want to forget that loneliness exist. Food would have enhanced its taste. Your words would be my intoxicant. People would be extras in the production of “us”. Make me float through clouds of unpredictable vulnerability.

I need everything I know to be challenged and all my constants to become variables.

I am NOT closed off or unapproachable, I am just uncompromising. Excite me. Intrigue me. Fascinate me. Anything less will never keep me. Have me for a moment, until that one comes to take me for a lifetime. I am tired of going to bed alone... even when I have someone right next to me. Because everything else is insignificant until you find your way to me.